Feeling Fear and Moving Through It Anyway

Feeling Fear and Moving Through it AnywayFor most of my life, I’ve hated driving up winding mountain roads. Not down them—just up. I’m not even sure where this fear comes from, but I’ve had it for a long time.

Recently, I had a business trip where I had to fly into Reno airport, rent a car, and drive over the mountains to North Lake Tahoe. There was a high chance of winter conditions, and I could feel my anxiety rising.

The Universe has a way of delivering opportunities for us to face our fears so that we can let them go. This can be liberating, but it’s never convenient. Or fun.

I could already see a perfect storm of fear brewing on the horizon.

My Experience in the Perfect Storm of Fear

So picture this, with my already present anxiety, I flew into Reno airport to find that my luggage didn’t make it on the plane. On top of that, when I went to pick up the big safe SUV I reserved from the rental car company, I was instead handed the keys to a 4×4 Jeep.

When I asked the guy where the 4-wheel drive button was, he said “I don’t see any buttons in here so I’m sure it’ll kick in automatically if you need it.”

I looked at him skeptically and said, “The airline was sure my luggage would arrive, too.”

Whenever I drive a rental car, I always go through the process of connecting my phone to the car’s Bluetooth. But between my missing luggage, the unexpected car change-up, and the mountain drive ahead, I was so frazzled that it completely slipped my mind.

Instead I climbed in and glued my hands to the steering wheel. I could feel the anxiety rising within me like a distracting hum that I didn’t want to hear. I tried talking myself down, breathing deeply, and telling myself “it will be OK.”

But as I did, a voice inside kept saying, “Why is this so scary? Why can’t you just get over it? Why is your heart beating so fast? What is wrong with you?”

With all these thoughts and self-judgments running through my mind, I buckled up and drove off.

The Perfect Answer to My Fears

So there I was in a Jeep that may or may not have had 4 wheel drive, climbing up the dreaded mountain pass. I became very conscious of my breathing, and started repeating the Louise Hay affirmation “I am safe, I am at peace, everything is well within.”

And you know what?

All of a sudden the most amazing thing happened. My phone started to play music through the car speaker system, and the song that came on was Perfect by Jami Lula.

I truly love that song! The chorus, “You’re perfect, you’re golden, you’re light, you’re love,” was exactly what I needed to hear.

Even now, I don’t know how my phone got connected to the car’s Bluetooth system, and yet there was that beautiful song! I started singing along at the top of my lungs, pushing energy through my voice. I felt guarded and safe. And wouldn’t you know it, as the song ended, I was at the top of the mountain and beginning my descent.

I was in the clear.

I am in such awe to think that the Universe provided exactly what I required in that moment, without me doing anything. And I am so grateful to know that the Universe has my back. The playing of Perfect was such a wonderful reminder that even when I feel alone—I am never alone!

Replacing Fear With Confidence

On my return trip I had the choice of taking the same route, or a longer but flatter route. The concierge checked the conditions and said that the weather would be fine. So I took a deep breath and decided to face my fear and take the same route back. But this time I would be more prepared!

I planned to talk with Alexandra, my business partner, as I drove so that I would be connected with someone. I got out my headset, and got my phone ready to play Perfect so I could sing my way up and down the mountain.

Feeling confident, I kicked off my plan and called Alexandra. We talked for about 10 minutes and then I lost all connection.

At this point, I actually got a smile on my face, because it was the Universe telling me “You know I’ve got your back—but you can do this alone!”

I guardedly took one hand off the wheel and pressed the play button on my phone. Music filled the car, and I sang through Perfect three times as loud as I could, letting go of anxiety and fear.

Facing Your Fears

I have to admit that journey was so much easier the second time. I am so grateful that I chose to stay with the fear when it came up. Honestly, I don’t know what I’ll experience next time I have to travel a winding mountain road, but I do know that I have everything I need within me to face my fears.

So the next time the universe sends a “perfect storm of fear” your way, remember—it’s actually providing you with an incredible opportunity to rise to the challenge. And just like me, you have everything you need to do it.

Do you have any recurring fears? If so, what has worked to move you through them? Let us know in the comments.

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